Let me just vent...that's why I have this blog, right?!
Lately I've been having my days. You know, those days. I've been really missing my husband a ton. I know he's stateside, and frankly I'm pretty tired of being told I should be thankful that he's not deployed. What makes you think I'm not thankful? I mean, really, who wants their husband deployed? Not me. I'm simply saying that I miss him.
He's not an 8 hour drive from me, he's a 36 hour drive (straight through) from me. He's a plane ticket. I could go see him, that's what gets to me. I could see him if I just had the money. Which really gets to me, I moved away from my job back in my home state and now, with the economy, I haven't been able to find a job. My degree is pointless, I feel useless, and we all know military pay is not the highest paying job. Living on one income is pretty darn hard!
So, please, don't tell me to be thankful he's stateside, because I am. I never wish a deployment on anyone, ever. I do, however, believe that God choose these fighting men and women for a reason, just like He choose us spouses to support them back home for a reason. We are all a part of the few and the proud. Not too much longer 'til I'm reunited with my husband...less than a week 'til my visit! Thank goodness! :)
3 comments:
Hi! I linked to you through SemperSpouse. My fiancé is deployed, but even when he's stateside we're 12-14 hrs apart. Can't wait until we can all be with our loves side-by-side!
I can't imagine what it must be for you Jess. It makes me so angry on your behalf to know that you waited so long to be with Evan, and moved clear from Ohio to California to be with him, just to have him moved -back- to the east coast for more schooling. It infuriates me!
Seperation is seperation! It's never easy if its near or a far away land. But I know your back in your lovers arms again! So excited for you!!!!!
thank you for your comments!