I once went from months of sitting in an empty apartment to having a dozen friends whom I loved very much. I was pretty close to all of them, but closer to a few.
Now that I'm in South Carolina I feel as if I have been cut off. Disconnected to my world of friends. I am back to sitting in an empty house with no one to talk to. It's not fun.
If you know what type of person I am, you know that I need people. I yearn for friendships and I hate being alone. I open myself up to people I barely know hoping for a friendship. Once a friendship is established I will and am a good friend. Well, as we all know, relationships can't be one-sided. I can't be a friend to myself...
I guess that's the culture of the military lifestyle. Starting from scratch. Jumping from place to place, only to figure out how to be a person again. Find friends. Find a life outside of my house and outside of my husband.
We all know we need girl time.
I have two years here, so let's hope I get out of this slump soon.
3 comments:
where in South Carolina are you? I would love to meet up if you aren't too far from Jacksonville, NC! Our ball is in Myrtle Beach and we go down there all the time :)
Ok I am so sad reading this! I hope you know I am always thinking of you! It's not complete without you here:( It's like a missing puzzle piece. We are all about to go our separate ways once Jamie leaves so I think some of us will be in the same boat. I really miss having you around and I hope it gets better. You are an amazing person so I believe you will have no problem making new friends. I love you Jess!
Jessica You are an amazing woman and anyone crazy enough not to want to get to know you is insane. I know it is tough but keep that head up. You will make friends. You are to great not to. I love you!!!!
thank you for your comments!